jenna// short story

oh i love writing. writing is a way to express your thoughts without a face behind those thoughts. so they can't judge you. so that you can type with no capital letters. i have decided to write a short story. like really really short as not to bore you. i am literally just writing what comes in to my head. i hope you enjoy it.

i'm jenna and i'm 15. 15 is an awkward age. most definitely an awkward age. it is an age at which you want to be an adult and talk louder and louder to make yourself heard. on monday i stood up infront of everyone in assembly and spoke. out loud. about some history thingy. people clapped and clapped and i just stood there smiling. people patted me on the back and were like, jenna your awesome. and i said thanks. i did. i really did. except it didn't happen. i am speaking in assembly now. saying this crap to you guys sitting here listening. i love to speak. i really do. i'm jenna and i'm 15, thankyou for listening.

i do love to talk. i really do. except i can't. i have so many things to say that are never said. you can't hear me. i have no voice. until now. i'm standing in assembly talking. i am. i am. and you are all watching. you are. i'm jenna and i'm 15. i'm mute. do you know how that feels? of course not, because i've said it all in my head. you can't hear me. you can't. your looking now. you want to know how i do it. i would tell you but you wouldn't understand. no of course not.

this speech i have said has touched you. i know it has. you will look at me differently now. and respect me. you can hear my voice now. so thankyou for listening. for hearing what i have to say although you cannot hear it. thankyou.

it is only now i realise i have said it all in my head.

Jenna's story is kinda sad I guess. I really enjoyed creating the voice of Jenna and I hope that you liked it too. It has given me an idea. A very big idea which may just be the greatest idea I have ever invented- or the worst. Who knows? But I will do it. I will. Because I want a voice. I'm going to write Jenna's story. As a novel. A real novel. And maybe one day people will hear my voice in there head as they read it.

Keep dreaming.

why hello there, 2014

So there we have it. Another year that has zoomed past our very eyes. Many bloggers have done new year's posts in which they have reflected on the past year but I believe that as soon as that clock strikes 12 (Cinderella moment!), it  time to look forward. We can just about kid ourselves that 2013 was a happy happy year and it may very well of been but it is inevitable that we would have cried or had moments when the world hadn't seemed all unicorn(y) and rainbow(y). The same way that it is inevitable that 2014 will have not- so- happy moments too! But life is something that we can grab with both hands for free and although we may have sadness, it doesn't mean that the sadness has to take over our lives.

Here are a few of my favourite 2014 quotes that I am going to live this brilliant and fresh-canvas year by....

This isn't to say don't care about people, it means only care about things that are really important. Nothing shallow or unworthy because its a waste of your beautiful and precious time.

This is from one of my absolute favourite books in the world and this quote is my favourite. We have a choice and with that choice we can choose what hurts us and what we can say "I'm not going to let you take over my life" to!

Perfect for when you are feeling worthless and insignificant to the universe. Which I guess happens quite a lot for many. 

Another one from the 'Fault in our Stars' by John Green. I think this is so powerful it kinda explains itself...

Completely true. The past isn't your enemy- find it and turn it around. It isn't too late.

Trust. You get a lot back, trust me.

Pretty much sums up exactly how an attitude to life should be. Life won't stop so keep up and keep learning and discovering because there are plenty of people out there that need love.

Woah. Dude this post has been seriously deep! Hope this has inspired you in some weird way. Print off these amazing quotes and stick them round your room, on your cork-board or in a diary. Make this year your best yet!

2014, bring it on.

(oh and I have made a tumblr account : http://jessiemaisie.tumblr.com/ )